I am the brick house. The bricks make up
parts of who I am, my identity, my likes, dislikes, passions, ways of thinking,
theology, experiences, that sort of thing.
Over the past two(ish) years I’ve been “de-constructing”
by taking apart my brick house and looked very closely at every brick to try to
decide whether or not to discard it, put it to one side or rebuild with it.
Some decisions have been easy however I have a lot of bricks I’m not too sure
of. Actually… there are a lot of bricks that I have no idea what to do with,
and a couple of weeks ago it was really overwhelming. A couple of weeks ago I
was receiving prayer and I had this image of the top of a hill with bricks
everywhere, just everywhere all over the hill and I had no idea what I was
going to do. I felt so much pressure, so much doubt, so overwhelmed. But thankfully
I was in a safe place. At that moment in time of prayer I was being loved by my
wife and friend. The first thing my wife said in response was, “It’s ok. You
don’t have to put the bricks back together. That’s something God will do.” The my
friend said, “Yeah, that’s it. There’s no pressure”. That’s when it dawned on
me. I’m a son. Not a slave, or worker, a hired hand keeping to a time schedule
to get it all together before the storms come rolling by. It’s all good… I am
loved unconditionally, bricks everywhere, decisions unmade, a bit lost and
overwhelmed.
I came across this passage in the Bible a
couple of days ago.
Hebrews 3: 1-6
Therefore, holy
brothers and sisters, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on
Jesus, whom we acknowledge as our apostle and high priest. He was faithful to the one who appointed
him, just as Moses was faithful in all God’s house. Jesus
has been found worthy of greater honour than Moses, just as the builder of a
house has greater honour than the house itself. For
every house is built by someone, but God is the builder of everything. “Moses was faithful as a servant in all God’s house,” bearing
witness to what would be spoken by God in the future. But
Christ is faithful as the Son over God’s house. And we are his house, if indeed
we hold firmly to our confidence and the hope in which we glory.
I know I’ve read this
verse before but it’s never really stood out to me until now. I took it as a
sign and I’m glad that God speaks through scripture to confirm what he is doing
in my life.
If we take the
analogy further, what exists outside the house is the weather and seasons and
all things outside. Seasons and weathers change and I’m sure that God is
rebuilding me for a new season. My house, myself, will be re-structured, re-built
and re-designed in such a way that will be the most effective to live out the
new season, whatever that looks like.
God is standing on
that hill with me rebuilding his house and there’s no rush… He’s handing me a
brick at a time and we chat through it and decide what to do with it. It’s good
fun.
